The world does not fully know the works of God. These can be clearly seen with the world, but only God is the one who can open the eyes to see. Without Christ, we are unable to believe or hear the word of God. It is only through faithful followers is the word preached or told, then God is able to work inside a person to bring them into a revelation of Himself. It took a suicide attempt back right after I graduated college for me to fully grasp the wickedness that I was living in. This revealing is still taking place as God has continued to move in my life to make me the man that He has called me to be.
God worked through me trying to end my life by preserving my life as well as those who could have been hurt or killed due to my careless actions. The event all started with me going to the college campus to enjoy the Halloween parties that were going on. I drank heavily due to my numbing of the pain that I had been feeling since high school. This pain was caused by many factors, from feeling abandoned by my father to the drugs/medications that I was taking for Tourette Syndrome and my depression it caused. I was feeling tired of having to deal with all these jerks and movements by my body that I had no control of. My mom felt like my only solace from these pains, though, she would be taken from me only a few months later. After drinking heavily and interacting with other students that were on the campus at that time, I eventually blacked out and began to drive my car back to my townhouse that was 30 minutes from school. I had no clue what was going on and did not regain conciousness until I woke up on my couch the next morning. I eventually called a friend of mine and sought to find a church due to the fact that I had somehow survived the night due to the grace of God. I also remembered a friend that I was in a fraternity with that talked about church and being a Christian. It was with this information that I started going to a local church a few weeks later. God truly began to work in my life to have me believing all that I was hearing from the believers that were in my life at that time.
