Trust In God

The world is very seductive in how it lures those who are unaware into its grasp. Without the knowledge and relationship with Christ, we can easily fall victim to the snares of this predator. To be sucked into the world will make us in uniform with it and not able to be conformed to that of God. I personally have fallen victim many times to the pressures that the world can bring on someone. This from stress at work and home to feeling like I am not good enough or a failure at many things. This is a false way of look at life and one that can be very destructive. That being that it can lead to depression or even death due to the lack of feeling for ones life and forgetting where your true foundation is. Christ is our only hope to transform us and make us a living sacrifice that is good and acceptable to God.

After having been a Christian for a few months, I had to make a sacrifice to move on from physical items that were in my possession. This being that they were taken from me by a break in to my townhouse that I was living in at that time, though, I was away on a church camping trip at that time. The trauma from that event happened when I cam home from the camping trip to see a rock had been thrown through my window and once I entered I could see items that were missing as well as drawers opened up in the kitchen. As I walked upstairs, I saw clothes thrown everywhere and that my laptop that was on my desk was taken away. All of this brought on a feeling that was uncomfortable and that I could not bear to stay in my own home by myself. I contacted the leasing office and they were only able to help by stating I could put a trash bag on the window. I was not helped by this feeling and had to sleep many nights with all of the lights on for fear that the intruders were going to come back. I eventually moved out of the townhouse and went to live with a friend of mine.

After going through a divorce this past year, I now see the need to sacrifice my desires to help make the lives of my children better. When the feeling comes to succumb to my pleasure, I have to remind myself that the needs of my children come first. I do not always make the right decisions in these moments, but it is the battle that plays on in my mind that to continue to walk down the paths of indulgence in seduction of sins will lead me to destinations that will make it harder for me to be there for my children. I still have felt depression during this time and questioned God of why this has happened to me only to be reminded that He works all things for good even when we may not see it that way. 

These events that have unfolded in my life have showed me that I do not need to rely on the physical to help me get through this life, but to put my mind on Christ. All of the items that were stolen when I was a new Christian were reminders of a previous life that I used to live and it almost seemed as if God was telling me to renew my mind and have my actions of this life be devoted to Him before all else in this world. Having my children taken out of my life from being in it every day to every other weekend has been a hard adjustment that I still feel the pain over. It is only through the grace of God that I am able to have the strength to endure these tough times and persevere for the hope of a better future with them. My hope is to continue to endure when times are tough and put my trust in God. You can too and He will give you the strength to make it through any tough situation that you find yourself in. Until next time, God Bless!